Retrospection

It’s amazing how time flies so fast. There is this old adage that says we should always take time to stop and smell the roses. Well, I guess that’s what I forgot to do this past few weeks.
I’ve gotten horribly sick and my brain wasn’t functioning as fast as I want it to. I became less energetic and more irritable. Some would say it’s the lack of sleep or lack of nutrition. But whatever it was, it all boils down to one thing, I’ve been terribly stressed out.

Yes, I must admit I’ve gotten so engrossed about working and counting money, trying to balance our profit and our expenses. Trying to figure out how to gain more customers and how to retain them. Making mental notes of improvements and enhancement that needs to be accomplished. Tackling deadlines and hitting them on time. I have pushed myself so far that I have forgotten to take care of myself, my most important asset of all.

Although there’s nothing but negative that’s happening to me this past few days, I’ve learned a lot about being optimistic about things. Like, being grateful that my staff were still there to function without me.  I feel so blessed to have them as part of my start up organization and helping me fulfill my dream. I could never ask for anyone else to take their place.

Another thing that I’m grateful for right now, is the moments that I could have alone, by myself, and reflect about the things that I need to accomplish and things that needs to be put on hold. Everything has gone from slow to really, really fast for these past few months, that I have not the time to even sit down and write down my most intimate thoughts in a journal – or my shallow, pointless thoughts, here.

It just seems so funny now that just when I have all the exciting things to write about, that’s the time I don’t take a moment to jot it down. Then I call myself a writer of some sort? I may not be the best writer in the world, but at least, in my own world, I should try to be one, right?

I should make it a habit write every morning, don’t you think, my little dear blog? Just for the sake of venting out my thoughts and not stressing about my thoughts. You know what I mean.
At the end of the day, everything I do is just part of a bigger dream that I want to have for myself.

There is still my friends that I need to pay attention to, my family that I need to value, someone special to love and to keep, and a messy bedroom to fix each waking hour. And aside from that, my relationship with God needs a little bit of work here and there. So I guess its safe to say that everything still worked out for good.